Individuals often make commitments they struggle to uphold each year beyond the initial months. Breaking free from unhealthy habits can be a struggle.
Finding the drive to make positive changes in life can be challenging, leading many to maintain the status quo rather than putting in the necessary effort to grow and evolve.
I find myself succumbing to old vices when I struggle to break free from unhealthy habits, especially on days when everything seems to go wrong.
Instead of waiting for the new year, I strive to make changes consistently throughout the year.
Some individuals establish unattainable objectives that eventually become overwhelming, leading them to give in easily.
Through my dedication to a spiritual program, I have undergone significant transformations in my life over the past six years.
Once upon a time, my world was filled with discontent and unhappiness, as every aspect of my life seemed to be in disarray.
My life was overshadowed by sadness as I held onto the grievances that stemmed from my early years.
I held onto my pain, convinced that any fleeting moment of joy would be cruelly ripped away from me.
I spent my days seeking destructive means to escape the burdens of life.
These things caused me to squander the most crucial years of my existence.
I try to avoid dwelling on the missed opportunities that could have been mine.
Due to my emotional unavailability, I could not engage in meaningful friendships or relationships.
I failed to take advantage of the opportunities in therapy to work on self-improvement, choosing instead to indulge in self-pity and resentment.
I found a strange comfort in pain and suffering, as it was the lifeline that sustained me.
Today is a different story.
The most profound awakening came with the illness and passing of my Beloved Father.
It wasn’t until he was gone that his words finally resonated with me, urging me to release it all.
Every day, I thank God for blessing me with a wonderful, caring Father in my life.
Each new year brings its own set of challenges as I constantly strive to improve upon the last.
Every morning brings a fresh page to my story, yet the anxiety that lingers is the possibility of stumbling and wasting the invaluable effort I’ve invested in becoming the change.
I aspire to lead a life filled with love, integrity, peace, connection and acceptance.
Throughout my life, I have always prioritised others’ needs over my own. However, I have realised the importance of accepting the love and support that someone may offer me.
I have always resisted letting others care for me, as I pride myself on maintaining a tough exterior.
I’m worn out from trying to be the tough tomboy and ready to embrace my feminine side.
It will be challenging to break down the walls I have built, as it will require much trust.
My goals for the upcoming year are attainable, but I must focus on personal growth and development.
I strongly desire to nurture my creativity while reconnecting with my social circles and immersing myself in the vibrant world of theatre and the arts.
I have six months of psychotherapy ahead of me, and I am committed to putting in the effort to make the most of it.
I am searching for a place of worship where I can authentically express myself and gain more spirituality.
I have a list of things I am committed to improving and will continue to focus on.
I prioritise self-care and self-respect. My well-being comes first. I am committed to staying connected with my higher power and fulfilling my purpose.
I am determined to improve my shortcomings and consistently grow into a more refined version of myself.
I have diligently worked towards these achievable goals and will persist.
Take the time to introspect and determine the essential actions you must take for yourself before taking on any significant responsibilities.
In everything, there must be a balance.
Natalie M Bleau
Scripture of Balance