REALIGNING MYSELF
Some will never appreciate that you have moved on from their influence and opinions and will attempt to sway you to revert to their outdated thinking.
What is the significance of finding your centre?
Practising mindfulness allows you to ground yourself and take the time to digest the information you are taking.
In the past, I had a habit of internalising everything and constantly feeling attacked, which I now understand stemmed from my insecurities and fear of judgment or criticism.
I was reserved and often took on more than I could handle. I would fix people and situations that were not worth my time and energy.
What I should have done is focused on myself and minded my own business.
If I had the same mindset back then as I do now, I would have taken steps to protect myself from potential mental harm.
The sole authority I am accountable to is my higher power, whom I recognise as the God of my understanding.
Leaving the nest, I should have prioritised progress rather than futilely attempting to fix what was beyond repair.
Ironically, it took me most of my life and the passing of my beloved Father for me to heed the wisdom he was trying to impart.
I realise that the world’s weight is not mine to bear forever. Thanks to God’s grace, I woke up before becoming old and resentful.
I have developed a greater tolerance towards others and actively avoid adverse environments.
I have become immune to the opinions of others and refuse to let anyone impose their influence on me.
Always remember that you are responsible for living your life to the fullest and are accountable for every decision, whether good or bad.
Every hardship I have faced has served a purpose. Through these challenges, I have acquired valuable lessons and grown in wisdom.
I have delved into the intricacies of human behaviour to identify the subtle cues that may indicate someone is being deceptive.
Individuals can manipulate others’ emotions to achieve their desires, but I am not easily deceived.
I must be wary of insincere individuals, and the best course of action is to avoid them entirely.
Although avoiding them may not always be possible, I am determined not to tiptoe around or be forced into interactions with them.
Once someone has wronged you, it is nearly impossible for them to regain your trust.
I remain polite towards them but keep my interactions with them to a minimum, prioritising my well-being.
It can be challenging to realign yourself after experiencing triggers, as it may take me over a week to recover from the effects entirely.
When I find myself in a situation where the atmosphere is tense and uncomfortable, I know I should excuse myself and leave the gathering.
If I choose to stick around to please others, my mental health suffers, and I end up isolating myself at home to recover my mind for days without any social interactions.
Anything or anyone that sets me off will throw me off balance.
I can avoid them, but simply being in their presence ignites a fiery storm of anger within me.
I am struggling to balance this week, all because of a thoughtless remark someone made last weekend.
I am still trying to understand how this happened. It completely altered the trajectory and atmosphere of the entire week.
I am fighting a challenge to find my balance, but I am determined to overcome it.
For the future, I advise myself to prioritise doing the things that bring me joy instead of getting caught up in the negativity of someone else’s words.
I must remember that allowing someone else’s words to upset me gives them power they don’t deserve. Their opinions do not define my worth.
IT DOESN’T MATTER; THEY ARE NOT SIGNIFICANT TO ME!
In everything, there must be a balance.
Natalie M Bleau
Scripture of Balance
