Recently, I’ve found myself uncertain, struggling to navigate my emotions and thoughts surrounding my life.
After being under the care of the Mental Health Team for an extended period, I now find myself feeling adrift since being discharged. I feel like I no longer have that safety blanket to rely on.
I am currently undergoing psychotherapy and discovering a multitude of new issues surfacing in my thoughts.
I feel grateful for having addressed the numerous challenges in my life, yet I am mindful that there are still areas where I need to grow and improve.
I have achieved a lot in a brief period, but I know there is still much more to accomplish.
Lately, I’ve sensed a solid urge to shake things up, so I’ve relinquished some of my responsibilities.
I find myself sinking into a deep depression, only venturing out of my home for therapy sessions and then retreating into isolation.
This morning, I found myself penning my last goodbyes to a service commitment that has been a significant part of my life.
After waking from a restful night’s sleep and engaging in my daily spiritual practices, I realised I was still on the right track. Through this routine, I have discovered a profound sense of tranquillity and inner peace.
I have always tended to fret over things that have yet to occur or may never come to pass.
Even though my blog may make me sound weak, I felt compelled to be honest and reveal that I am not always strong and resilient. I am simply human, and there are moments when I stumble into the depths of despair.
As the saying goes, it’s not about the fall but about the strength to rise again and keep chasing after my life’s true calling.
The true essence of balance lies in embracing the uncertainties and fears that come with life’s journey. Choosing whether to succumb to chaos or bravely fight to survive is a test of resilience and determination.
I won’t pretend it’s been easy. The first few weeks of my new therapy phase have been tough, but my unwavering commitment and belief have been my saving grace. Without them, I might have faltered.
I find myself concerned over things beyond my control, such as the well-being of my loved ones and the troubling events that have transpired recently.
I have faith in the strength of prayer, and now I entrust all my concerns to the care of my higher being, God of my understanding.
Many believe surrendering to the darkness is the more straightforward path, but I refuse to give up the fight, for without it, life loses its meaning.
Life is full of hurdles that we must overcome. It’s important to understand that it’s okay not to always feel okay and to acknowledge our negative emotions. However, we must remember not to dwell on these feelings and instead strive to move past them.
‘GROW THROUGH WHAT YOU GO THROUGH
In everything, there must be a balance.
Natalie M Bleau
Scripture of Balance